What it all comes down to...

I keep trying to forget you...

So why is life so easy for some people but for me...
I just feel like shit all the time .
I can never be happy and it's really frustrating me . I don't get it..
Is there something wrong with me ?
All I want, is to understand the world, find out what I'm good at and meet the one I can't live without . Is that impossible ? For me...? Because, well, I'm getting so freaking tired of life .
And I'm scared . Scared to end up alone . I never felt so much anger about anything in my entire life .
My suposed best friend is actually a really crapy friend and she has it all and I'm a good person, at least most of the time and I...I just don't have anyone, nothing . Im alone and sad .
No one knows what I'm feeling because they don't want to know . My friends don't really care and my parents just want to disappear . And I just got my heart broken .
Again .

I'm just a girl with big dreams, not weird or crazy, just a little different,

Promise .

MG .

Clueless

I'm still clueless .
Still trying to figure it out . Me . Myself .
What I want, who I need .
Still waiting for the one . The one that will save me from my normality . Rescue me from my routine . He's there, and I know it .
Because I can feel it . But...who knows where ?
What if..
What if I meet him...and don't realise he's the one ? What if he walks right by my side and I don't see him...Don't notice him ?
What am I supposed to do, say..think ?
And if he's reading this right now...?
worst..what if he's reading it, and he doesn't feel it ?
Is that okay ? Is that allowed ?
I don't have a clue . I am absolutely clueless .



MG .